My Path
My path is a partnership between the Universe and I. It is a path of hanging on and letting go. Hang on, let go. The Universe = Reality. It is a partnership between me and Reality. And of course, I am part of Reality.
I move from a point, in my direction, the way I want to; the Universe moves from a point, in its direction, the way it wants to. Most of the time, we walk the same path. Sometimes, one of us, the Universe or I, will want to go in a different direction. If it is me, and I go, the Universe may say “Oh! I will go in that direction” and things become easier because the Universe is helping me. Or the Universe may say “No, I don’t want to go in that direction” and for me, things get harder. And at that point I can hold on and try to go in my direction, or I can accept the Reality and change my direction.
It is clear that I am approaching an awakening. What held me back was the fact that I had already reached part of it because of the way I was raised. And because of the way that I was raised I found it hard to move beyond it. Today I have more than twenty years of patchy Buddhist practice behind me. In front of me is the place to look.
Then, I understood in my head, now I am beginning to understand in my heart. Not long ago I was studying a new technological paradigm. I had reached a point of workable knowledge when the screaming feeling arose. I stayed with it. The throat allows.
It helps to understand how I got here, yet it isn’t important to understand where to go next. My experiences (accepting) are leading the way, my intentions are leading the way, my actions are leading the way.
It is in life just as it is on the cushion: a feeling, a thought, and emotion. An emotion leads, when it is there. And please remember the difference between a feeling and an emotion. So: what is the emotion? It is heart, throat, head, Robert, Bruce, Butch, agreeing.
It is both: a realization and resolution. Realization, before, prepares the way. Resolution, after, paves the way. Realization before is Acceptance, Resolution after is Action. Action continues as I travel the path.
I am in the trap, triangles appear, as I move toward the sun.